OZ Fountain

  • peace.

    lol. got tired of writing xanga one day and then never start again.
    well actually i ain't in a mood good enuf to write anything lately, not even my blog.

    for anyone who'd like to know more about how i'm doing, just stop by my facebook profile, or my blog.

    http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=564120730

    http://days.oscarbeing.net/

    anyway i've subscribed most of you guys' xanga thru RSS feed. i'm always catching up even i wasn't on xanga.
    for those who have their xanga entrance privated, sorry that i won't be spending too much time checking your latest entries.

    peace.

  • Ghost of You

    Song of the Day 071101
    Good Charlotte - Ghost of You


    And I will wait until the end
    When the pendulum will swing back to the darker side of our hearts bleeding
    I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave
    Where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together

    I have been searching for traces of what we were

    A ghost of you is all that I have left
    It's all that I have left of you to hold
    I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
    And nothing left of what we were at all

    Here I am pacing around this house again
    With pictures of us living on these walls
    I see my breath in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm wondering
    I'm wondering if it's you that I feel
    If it's you that I feel here haunting me forever

    I have been searching for traces of what we were

    A ghost of you is all that I have left
    It's all that I have left of you to hold
    I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
    And nothing left of what we were at all

    And I'm not looking for anything but us
    Anything but what we were
    And I'm not asking for painted memories
    I only want to know you're here

    A ghost of you is all that I have left
    It's all that I have left of you to hold
    I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
    And nothing left of what we were at all

    A ghost of you is all that I have left
    It's all that I have left of you to hold
    I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
    And nothing left of what we were at all
  • 尋晚好似畀隻白紋伊蚊針左一野...
    隻蚊比平時黑D, 大隻D, 見到D腳有D白間
    好專心咁針緊我手腕, 然後被我一野拍死~

    希望2星期內唔會有發燒感冒, 或者過度疲勞既癥況

  • One Step Further

    Exchanged a fact with Wingo and now it is like we can talk about everything.
    Have been catching up each other's past days and sharing some deeply hidden thoughts. (He's also the first one to know about my major turn-offs... lol)
    I am more than happy to share his happiness too.

    Sometimes it just takes ONE step, and one step alone to getting closer to people around you.
    And I know this one step will gradually change my life. At least I have to make it come true.

    And it's right. Time flies.
    It suddenly means a lot to me.

  • Got humiliated in the way that I never have been

    Had the farewell dinner for my colleague. It's something I won't enjoy to begin with, as most of the colleagues there were old women around 40 - 50.
    To make it worse, I got humiliated through out the whole night in a way that I have never been.

    First there was a colleague asking if I knew how to swear, which was actually teasing me for always being too quiet and polite.
    Then I guess I was just trying to be relaxed and said yes. And another colleague said he was so surprised to hear me speak a yes.
    Afterward the "feast" began. The colleague I mentioned before, who was so vulgar and kept badmouthing my director, started his usual teasing as always. He kept mocking me with a soft and sissy tone with the phrase "我唔知呢... 嘻嘻嘻..."

    I tried ignoring his stupid act but then another colleague took her part.
    She was actually an old nun above 50 and I have never had a chance to talk to her before. She started calling me dumb, not dumb for stupid but dumb for unable to speak.
    Whenever there was a new dish coming, she just said something like "喂. 啞果個呀. 食呢樣啦." "喂. 啞既, 食啦."

    Both of her and that vulgar scumbag kept doing the teasing through out the whole time, that even some of other colleagues who had participated at first, felt sorry for me and told them to stop.
    But they just got more and more crazy. When the final dish came, and I was quite full to eat, they kept saying "喂. 啞果個, 你一定要食呀. 等我教埋你點做. 首先你要企o係身, 拎起對筷子. 好喇. 用筷子夾, 係夾埋隻碗度喎. 繼續夾呀. 繼續夾呀. 好喇. 夾完放返埋隻碗, 然後坐返低啦."

    At the moment those 2 scumbags got so excited. Some of other just saw it as an entertainment and participated. But some actually felt embarrassed for me and tried to make them stop.
    But then I was really weak I guess, as I didn't lose my temper and still acted so calm for the whole time. Deep down I was so furious that I wanna torture those scumbags to the degree that they won't wanna live. (Hey but then it was against the law.)

    For the love of god, I am only a 20 something young man.
    I am not even old enough to be you people's son. What wrong have I done that all of you needa gather "forces" together and give me such a hard time?!
    I have been polite to everyone and not a snobbish moment. If I am always quiet, it is just because I don't usually have topics with grandmas and grandpas.
    What good can you get from picking on me like that? Some good laughs? From humiliating someone who is even too young to be your children?

    That's why I always say I dislike a working environment like this! When everyone is so old and being a traditional Chinese.
    They are so closed-minded that they gotta act polite but fake in normal occasion. And deep down they are all fierce and hideous beasts.
    They can't let a single chance pass away when they can sabotage someone with no harm.

    Yea. Human beings are hideous, I can give you that. Especially for those old ones under the influence of traditional Asian culture.
    But at the end of the day, I don't plan to turn myself into like them. Being kind and nice is something I wish to learn, not to throw away. If I have to turn myself into another hideous beast just for protecting myself, then I would rather spend my life looking for places that niceness is appreciated.